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Man, people in my family keep talking about their gardening plans. It's kind of hard not to be a stick in the mud - you know, "If you want to do seedlings, you'll probably have to order the seeds now, and start them sooner than you think" and "We're in Zone 2. Are you sure those will even grow up here?"

Prediction, like every year: They'll start the seeds way too late, and the fancy-dancy flowers that would probably do fine in southern BC won't have a chance up here. :V

Friday night and stressed out for No Particular Reason? More likely than you think. :V

Ugh, this sucks. ...Maybe I just need sleep? I almost dozed off even though it's hardly past eight. Again. (This happens every Friday.)

Maybe I'm getting old, oh no.

Hnrrrrrh there are raspberries out in the garden, and I don't want to pick them because I'm exhausted and it's hot out and also there are mosquitoes and spiders out there. But it needs to be done either tonight or tomorrow. ...It would be nice to have raspberries with breakfast tomorrow. Which means I'd have to do it tonight. But I don't want to.

And that means I should just suck it up and do it anyway and reward myself with game-time or something.

/SIGH

Okay, okay, fine, I'll just finish this cup of coffee and then GO DO IT and then I can stop whining about it. (Gonna have to haul out the heavy-duty bugspray, yuck.)

[Edit] OKAY, never mind, abort mission, that bush is COVERED in spiders.... I, uh, I think I might need to consider an alternate course of action. ("Hey, little brother, wanna pick some berries for me? I'll give you ten bucks." ...Okay maybe I won't call my brother to save me from these cursed arachnids but, um. I'll just. Have to think of something.)

Main project for this weekend is to finish up my Rare Slash fic and post it. Like, the draft is done, it just needs adjustments. And then I'll throw it to a beta or whatever, but for now I just need to edit the thing. Yes indeedy. And then I need to edit the other things. And maybe write a treat or two. And THEN I can think about and hopefully start writing the F/F Slavic Mythology darkfic that's been rolling around in my head recently. ....And something for NorthWord too, I guess. Maybe.

(I was going to backdate this because it's so pointless, but I am trying to Manage My Anxiety, and part of that involves giving myself a kick in the pants, and acknowledging that I am in fact not imposing on anyone by writing trivial nonsense in my journal and allowing it to show up on other people's friends feed.)

[Edit] I might have been thwarted by the garden, but at least I accomplished SOMETHING tonight. Finally caved and decided to attempt to replace the pads on my earphones. I was kind of dreading it, because these are super expensive headphones and I'd never done that sort of repair before; I was worried about damaging them. But I DID IT. HOORAY. And I didn't break anything. I win!

✿ Today was driving practice downtown. IT WENT WELL. Turns out that Sunday mornings are an excellent time for driving in the areas that make me the most nervous. So, I expect I'll be doing more of that in the future. Starting next week. Which is great, because it means that if I drive down to the library, it means that I have enough time and energy to spend exploring the nature trails on Macdonald Island and along the river. I don't get to do that when I take the bus.

✿ I bought some boots yesterday, and I'm completely enamoured with them. Stylish dark brown leather lace-ups. They don't just look good, they're comfortable, and they fit properly, and considering how much of an ordeal it can be for me to find shoes like that... I'm happy. I feel like I'd actually be able to wear these on a regular basis, unlike my other ones, which all have heels on 'em. I mean, I love wearing heels, but considering my typical weekend wanderings are anywhere from 5-10km... well. Anyway, they make me feel very stylish and handsome, and I can hardly wait to wear them at every opportunity. (It's been kind of hard to motivate myself to dress fashionably without appropriate footwear, y'know?)

✿ You know, I've lived in this house for 17 years, and it's only just now that I discovered there is enough room on my windowsill for some flowerpots. Soooo, now I have some seeds planted for rosemary and spearmint. I'd hoped for sage too, but wasn't able to find it available anywhere - ah, well. This is a nice start, anyway. I'm not sure where on earth I'll put them in winter, assuming this is successful, but we'll see how it goes.

✿ I got SO much writing done today! It helps that for a good portion of Saturday, I had the house to myself, which meant that I could write at the kitchen table, where there's lots of room and light, and nobody to pester me, unlike usual. Amazing what can happen when there isn't someone poking their nose in my business every five seconds. :V I managed to make some progress on my NOFM assignment, which is nice. Also the Vesa/Suvi "accidental courting" thing that I started earlier this week. Aaaand I finished the draft for the Joona/Anssi thing I started for Porn Battle (and who knows, maybe I'll have finished editing it by the time the next amnesty session goes up in June-ish). So, yes. Good weekend for writing. I'm really happy about it.

✿ Today I went geocaching and this time I actually FOUND THE THING. I swear, I've been past this place twice before, looking for it, and the container was right in front of my face the whole time. [/facepalm] Wandering around in the woods is something I've never done enough of, and I'm starting to get more confident when it comes to mucking around in the bush, so hopefully I'll be able to get out there more often and find some more caches. I'm really curious about the condition of the ones in the Birchwood - I have a feeling that a lot of them might have been damaged, but you never know. Anyway, I've bought some thick gloves to deal with the rosebushes, and with luck I'll be able to set aside time for some wandering before the mosquitoes become intolerable. Unfortunately, it's already bear season, but ehhhh one can't have everything, I guess.

Eyeliner is the devil's cosmetic of choice. Every time I try to wear it, I remember exactly why I avoid it. Good lord. What a mess. People who can wear it are magic and I bow to their amazing talents. May your cat-eyes forever be even.

...Anyway.

This morning was one of those mornings where I left the house in such a rush that it's a miracle I remembered to bring my head with me. And my lunch, for that matter. I ended up stuck at the bus stop with absolutely nothing to read, and of course all of my library audiobooks were expired, and it was absolutely tragic. The only reading material that I did have on me was a tiny volume of Shakespeare's sonnets, and while there are some poets that I am willing to read in 6-point font at the asscrack of dawn before work, Billy Shakes is not one of them.

AHH but when I did get to work, I had a nice discovery! The lavender plant I've been trying to grow actually sprouted! See, a couple of weeks ago, I bought one of those gimmicky plant-in-a-can things from the dollar store, you know, just as a lark. I thought it wouldn't actually grow, because well... dollar store plant kit. Enough said. But AHH IT GREW. Well, it's starting to, anyway. Just a tiny little green thing right now. So cute. We'll see how this goes. I... really like the idea of growing things from seed in theory, but it isn't something that I can do at home - not suitable space for it - so it isn't something I have any experience with. But. We'll see!

Other nice things: There was SUNLIGHT when I was walking to the bus this morning! And someone brought coffee and donuts for everyone at work! And some of the self-indulgent OC-centric writing I've been doing is coming along nicely!

Lately I've been feeling very - well, not great, to be quite honest. (Okay, to be very honest, I've been awful, and I've fallen into that rut where I spend hours staring at the walls. Again.) But today was pretty good. And I've managed to come up with some ideas to turn things around, so I think I'll be able to set myself back on track again. Fresh air and sunlight won't solve everything, but it's a great place to start. One thing at a time!